Soooo Nervous....

Today's a big day. Today I interview at Panoram Italia for their Graphic Designer position. I'm quite nervous seeing as I haven't been on an interview in about 4 years. I'm feeling a little rusty.

What's worse is that I don't even have an up to date portfolio... The last time I used my portfolio was when I graduated from the International Academy of Design 6 years ago. Over the years I've never updated it because I never had the need to use it. The jobs I was hired for were through word of mouth so they didn't even care about my portfolio.

I was able to put something together rather quickly on the computer and present it on a DVD, it came out ok, I just wished I had had more time to work on it.

I guess one of the reasons I'm so nervous is because there is a lot riding on this. If I get the job, then the bank will pre-approved me for a mortgage to buy a house and sell the condo, if I get the house then I can start the adoption paper work... No job means no house, which in tern means no baby...

The financial stability of knowing where your paycheck is coming from every week wouldn't be a bad thing either.

I've been so stressed that yesterday I even baked a batch of cookies. I love the fact that I can cream butter and sugar together, add a few other ingredients and presto, cookies. Its very comforting, I guess because I know the mechanics of it, and I know what the outcome will be, no surprises. I'd keep baking but the hubby has already devoured half of the contents of the cookies jar...

Well its 10am, my interview is at 4pm, I guess I'll pick out my outfit, iron it and then take a nice long bath. I'd love to go take a nap considering I got up early this morning to finish a project and didn't get much sleep worrying about today, but I'm too afraid that I'll sleep through the alarm.

Maybe I'll just put on a mediation CD and try to relax...

Well... wish me luck...